ok nw i noe myself better.. and i have decided to change! pls wish mi good luck

ok.. todae is quite a sad dae and the coming fridae will be worse... firstly.. i realise from my gp tutor tt i did the most diff qn out of all the other qn of paper 1... so tt leaves mi a chance of passing at like 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% and in simple maths terms.. round down to 0.00% in 3sf... omg.. i failed gp.. and secondly, after gng thru the fm paper 1 and 2.. the chance of passing is jus similar to gp... nw i am so worried for phy and chem... i am so screwed tis time.. nv been so worried about grades b4... i am dead.. alr prepared for bad results..nw is jus hope tt i can take the blow on fridae and wun jump down some building on the dae b4 bdae... i hav absolutely no mood to tink of wat bdae and stuff... but too bad... i tink i deserve wat i will get... i realli didnt work hard tis yr... i was soooo slacked and stupid... didnt bother alot... so if tis time i fail the examm.. it jus serves me right... to tink i still help my sa frens in the hols... beta tell them to forget wat i hav told them... later hai le ta men... wat ability do i hav to help them... omg.. feel so stupid... haix...


ok.. actually tts one thing in skool... den the other was bout myself... i asked my sa fren todae a qn... i asked her : how hav i changed from the past.. cos i saw her recently and it hav been more than a yr since we last met... so jus wondering wat others opinion bout me.. and the ans was shocking... she said i was unfriendly and scary... i noe i wasnt good at the beginning bt being described as scary and unfriendly was wat i didn thot of... ok nw tis is scary... so i didnt realised tt i was unfriendly and scary for the past 18 yrs.. (gng to be 19 yrs)... i feel realli lousy and i feel a real need to change... during hols i oso chatted wif my ac fren den she oso more or less meant the same thing.. so its true... haix... from wat i hav heard so far... i was, in the past,: unfriendly, scary, unhelpful,rude, attitude, zui ba jian(i noe tis), sly, talkative, kpo, asshole..... so i was so lousy and i didnt realise... honestly, i will change at my best ability... hope tt i can make it...

den comes to another thing... recently i hav been chatting and msging my old fren agn and heard some of their life story and had some feelings... tok to her quite alot and realise tt my life exp is relli quite limited and so narroww....


haix.. ren sheng zhen shi fan... nan guai my mum sae... 凡人真是烦人