"enjoy NS" quoted from oes, a NS enthusiast

"enjoy NS" quoted from oes, a NS enthusiast.

It is worth discussing. National Service. A two-year military training for all abled male Singaporeans (not necessarily borned one) who are above 18. My opinion on this is not suitable to be posted here. It will cost me a certain price to pay. But from the title, it is quite obvious. I have just received my letter telling me to get to some training school next year January, that is so freaking soon. But its not that bad also, at least get to be released earlier. In about two months time, I will on my way to a testosterone-filled island for three months (I shall thank my biology teacher for teaching how to spell testosterone). My best friend will only be going in in March, that when I get out, he gets in. My secondary schoolmate, oes, msned me tonight and we "discussed" about the "joy of NS" as he had said. (I am doing GP at my A level, so punctuation means alot. The "" here is meant to quote his words, but I do want to use it for the other reason as well at the same time). He sounded really like as if he was talking about how beautiful his girlfriend is to me. A true NS enthusiast. I thought I have just met someone who told me that he loved to slog and work all day long. Then I was hit by another shock when he said BOTAK (which means hairless)! I thought it was going to the normal usual complain about having to be bald. BUT. As a NS enthusiast, he shocked me again. He said he will be enjoying his hairless days. Again for a moment I thought I had just talked to someone who loved to have his eyebrows shaved. Okay, I recognised that there are people who really loved to slog and have his eyebrows shaved all at the same time but I have never expected that it could be such a joy for that person. At least for me, it will be good enough if NS + botak doesnt sound so much like a death sentence to me.



The coming two years, I swear, will be the last time in my entire life that I will shave off my hair botak, until I step into the coffin.



Now I realised why they have to notify us only two months before our enlistment. It really feels different when you receive the letter, at least I felt less happy and relaxed after the letter. Also, it made me think back about last year when I made an important decision. Now I have got the feeling of knowing that I will be away for the next two years, I am more certain that I did the right thing. Only getting the letters made me felt isolated from the world already, let alone really going into army for two years. It is going to be more tough and difficult for me than for me to take A level and O level in one day. I did not handle it well last year. In addition to NS, it will only get out of hand faster, then it will only cause more heartbreaks and tears. Once is enough. There will not be a second chance.

I wouldn't want to chain you up to the wall and myself go away leaving you behind, chained.

I am not a good boy but I am not selfish.

I am forced to lead that life, I can't force you to lead that life with me.




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我書桌上的香水
你沉默地背對
只剩下那一點點
還是聞得到從前

西裝裏的口袋
我整理過的愛
又破了那一點點
我幫你補了誓言

從沒實現的搖滾夢
我也陪你走好多遍
斷弦的吉他
始終彈不出我要的答案

我和你拼了好幾夜
約翰列農的圖片
卻拼不到一個永遠
我在等你喊停

感覺不到從前溫柔的雙眼
感覺得到你已不再眷戀
無奈的笑試圖讓我知道
得了失憶可能對你我都好

感覺不到說是為了我改變
感覺得到承諾劃過我左臉
我不知道也許我會得到
一句還是朋友這是藉口還是盡頭